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"History repeats itself, the war will soon begin"
School dropout 
5th-Jul-2017 01:56 am
Waiting for command
"You think, when you're out of school you're free, sonny? Oh, hell no! Then work life calls for you - and work life is only a continuation of what's been happening in school, only worse and even more strict. What you already were there, you gonna be also in your job life. If you were a loser, a slacker or a victim of your school mates' coping methods for boredom already there, then you gonna be the same among your colleagues. A really, really small cog in the clockwork...
The only way you'll not be forced to deal with this is when you happened to be born to an incredibly wealthy family or if you managed to become rich on your own before the day you leave school. Which is like zero probability.
So, don't even try to think you're a bigwig that gets his way."
5th-Jul-2017 11:49 pm (UTC)
I just came across an old thought (I think it was an old one) and then it came to me "You know, that's actually not unimportant to note. It's something of a lesson. Many people - youngsters - run around just like the real innocent and think God-knows-what the world holds for them, gives them for free and what their future's gonna look like! And hell what, what a fucking lie that is that they get made believe...".
I know it from own experience nobody's gonna tell you this.
All people just play the enthusiastic "all's gonna end well"-simpleton and that's it. If you don't succeed, you fall into a dark hole and ask yourself for what the hell you did wrong.
But at times, it may even be you did NOTHING wrong at all. It's just the world telling you "Fuck you!" - but, as you can maybe guess, the rest of your surroundings is trying to tell you differently. Push the blame on your side even though.

It's hell of a lot complicated, my brain all needed to learn all this many years ago on its own. There was no-one to help it concretely in that issue. And it was a way of hurt - because you didn't choose to believe in fairy tales, but just the systematic reality.
6th-Jul-2017 08:39 pm (UTC)
I don't know education is a difficult matter but I tell you that my institute was such a place where everyday you are in dark hole and everyday it seems the world is telling you Fuck off, I am constantly through my life after I had finished this wonderful school are seeing a nightmare that I am at institute again and have an exam... So, you know I believe I could get anything and it is normal for me to get through numerable failures it is not affecting me in no way... I am glad to study new things, to try new things, to reach new horizons...
What it is about youngsters we have in Russia still good schools, teachers but yeah not many parents and children are ready to go through such obstacles while there is an easy option to pay and don't give a fuck and after yeah life is hard...
7th-Jul-2017 06:51 am (UTC)
Well, in that point I can only note I'm refering to my experiences with the system here.
It's also not only overall orientated towards education, school-education, it's more... the way this society over here works at all. How people think that surround you in a certain age situation. What they try to make you believe in that situation, motivated by good will, but totally blind to the realities that exist. It's also a pretty cheeky and harmful stunt to give youngsters those feelings that they do - because, in reality not everyone is "special" or "so talented" and makes it. In reality you try and fail, you fall on your face, you have to back down before others - it's all anything else but "living what you want to do" and "all doors are open for you". Not even to speak of that's "all just you only need to walk through". Bullshit!
You know, it's... building up false hopes. And giving you the blame for when you're "too dumb" to just fit in to these false hopes. Whether with a reason or not.
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